Die die die die die :s

2011-09-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

Well, September holidays are ending in like 3 more days? Thats like damn fast okay. Anddddddd, when school reopens, it'll shall be prelim all the way, follow by o levels. For this 1 week, was like playing and having fun almost everyday, only 1 day used on tuition and didn't freaking touched on any revisions. Moreover, yesterday didn't went to chem and went ate mac and played pool with Sharon instead. I know i shouldn't be like this yet i am still ignoring the fact that its just less than 2 months. I can talk words into people to ask them to study, but why cant i myself do so? Ironic herhhhhhh. Tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday also have plan, no time to study again! Hoseh liao lo! :s

Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you just laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people who touches your hearts. You could spend hours with them doing real stupid things and it can be the best time of your life. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you about anything or make you change. They accept you exactly as who you are. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thing in the world. I find my time with my friends. They are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life. They are the one who stays with you when your boyfriend leaves you. And in life, no matter how bad things had became, friends will always be there handing you a piece of tissue and be there for you. Lastly, friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

Cherish.

2011-09-04T07:39:00.000-07:00

I wanna have a blog that i can read back, many years later. (:
Been through too many things recently. So many things to say but don't know how exactly can i express myself. I guess i only know how to take things for granted and start to cherish when it is gone. How i wish i can turn back time, to times when all i ever know is, drink milk, sleep, play and cry as and when i like. No need to worry about anything, wouldn't have any heartbreaks and to face such a cruel reality. I'm just afraid of choosing anymore wrong path to take. I'm a very indecisive person. I can't really make decisions for myself. I'm afraid of doing and saying the wrong things now. Some words said, will be forever remembered and can't be taken back and some things done, can't be undone. I'm really tired. Both mentally and physically. I really feel like just sleep and dont wake up. Sometimes i'm really jealous of some people. However, they do not seem to cherish what they have too. Perhaps, its true people just like to take things for granted and start to cherish when it is gone, when its all too late. I really wish to have a guy best friend; who knows me better than anyone else could, who i could share my troubles/thoughts with, who treats me as his sister, who people to recognising us as couple; who would not neglect me even he have a gf, who can be there for me as and when i need him.Had birthday celebrations with many friends and family, all seperately. Though didn't had an official celebration but really had to say thanks to you guy, for making this year's birthday of mine, memorable. :) didn't really take till manymany pictures too! ):Dug out some long ago pictures of me and siblings, FUCKING CUTEEEEEEEEE!

omg no teeth!

me and bro.

gangster.

porn.

jiaobin.

LOL.

bro and sist.

bro and sist.

bro and sist.

cousin.

Szb.

Szb 2.

Szb 3.

playground.

playground.

playground.

gold dropping from sky?

birthday celebration in kindergarten.

birthday celebration in kindergarten.

birthday celebration in kindergarten.

bro, sist and me.

Cousin and me.

Cousin and me.

Szb 4.

simtingyi and me.

christmas. haha

(Y)

me and cousin.

szb 5.

szb 6.

with cousin.

5yo birthday?

looks so tam jia!

so sweeeeeet.

sibei lot of stun!

sist 1yo birthday.

likea sweet only!

me and sister.

my jiaobin ! :p

Here's a story that i came across and find it so sad, posting it for the 2nd timeeeeee.

IT'S 7TH GRADE ;
I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her. Long, silky hai, and I wished she was mine.. But she didn't notice me like that. I knew it. After class she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be "just friends". I love her but I'm too shy to tell her and I don't know why...
IT'S JUNIOR YEAR ;
My phone rang. On the other end it was her, she was in tears... Mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, I Drew Barrymore movie and 3 bags of chips. She decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be "just friends". I love her but I'm too shy to tell her and I don't know why...
IT'S SENIOR YEAR ;
The day before prom, she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said. He's not going to go, well... I didn't have a date and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neiter of us had dates we'd go together just as "best friends" and so we did...
IT'S PROM NIGHT ;
After everything was over with, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her, she smiled at me. I wanted her to be mine but she doesn't think of me like that and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and she gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I don't want to be "just friends". I love her but I'm just too shy and I don't know why...
IT'S GRADUATION DAY ;
A day passed, and then a week, and then a month. Before I could blink, It was graduation day. I watched her, perfect body, floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me that way, and I know it. Before everyone went home she came to me in her smock and hat and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulders and said "you're my best friend", "Thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I wanted to know that I wanted to be more than "just friends". I love her but I'm too shy and I don't know why...
IT'S A FEW YEARS LATER ;
Now I sit in the pews of the church. A church that she is getting married in now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life. Married to another man... I wanted her to be mine but she didn't see me like that and I knew it... But before she drove away, she came to me and said "You came! , thanks!" and she kissed me on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I didn't want to be "just friends". I love her but I'm just too shy and I don't know why...
YEARS PASSED ;
I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend"... At the service they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it said : "I stare at him, wishing he was mine. But he doesn't notice me like that and I know it. I wanted to tell him, I wanted him to know that I don't want to be "just friends". I love him but I'm just too shy and I don't know why... I wish he would tell me he loved me" , I wish I did too... I thought to myself and I cried.
Rest in peace my Love...

I dont wanna have anymore regrets.

O level faster end~

2011-06-14T22:47:00.000-07:00

hellohellohello , i'm back to blogging again !! hehehe (;
this holiday hadnt really touched any work besides math , during tution . think i really gonna flunk le ! flu for 23087256901 days already , terrible man ! later gonna go arena w/ Wanxuan and my sister play pool , so no need study again~ still enjoying life .____. really looking forward to the end of O's manz ! omg. :s

recently i'm hating my brother more and more , frigging dog . why the f is he born sia seriously .

sigh . i'm feeling so stuffed up . so so miserable . omg :/
waiting for that day to come~ will it ?
hmm, i trust you and i know you do too. (;

i really had to get preparing now or i'm gonna be late !!! ciaos ~

♥ Michelle's

Die die die die die :s

Cherish.

O level faster end~